So I've been reading my teacher's blog. It struck me, that the way I write is unstructured, hullabaloo, messy, disarticulate and jumbled.
I jump around my thoughts so quickly, and I get lazy to pen them all down that what appears is a mishmash, gewgaws of words, jacked up to form this and that.
I loved reading that blog.
It was structured, readable and basically a fresh, open window.
Well, I'm still reading it, and I was thinking that writing might be a bigger window than i thought to thoughts and personality.
Is my personality such a deviation when online me comes on? Offline me is so different I feel like an alter ego. Are my jumbled writings simply a way to cover something up?
To mix words as my perception that confuz is the way to go?
I'm usually quite coherent with my thoughts, I can contemplete quite well, I'm especially interested in the little rigrags people do everyday.
Some friends can testify that I can get overly questionative when it comes to stuff like " do you wear PJs at home?"
How people place their toothbrushes also intrigue me.
Is that really a positive trait? Is learning all that going to be any use?
Reading about an older person's blog has made me how much I think in hindsight these days.
We always say "if only", and at this point, I make sure I have as little "if onlys" in the future and that I think is wise.
Then again, why would I want to change? Is that need for conformance to the roly-polys of my secular world so dire?
Or can I simply mess myself again and dumb my mind?